Will it last?

I guess you can say that things are actually getting better for me. He finally spoke to me and told me what was going on. He was having a lot of personal issues not necessarily me but I guess when you feel like you loose control of your life and if your partnered with someone. The easiest thing to control is the person. So in his case he got rid of me because I guess for him it was his first step into controlling his life. But not thinking about the consequences that came with his actions!!! I know that I was great to him. I loved him with all my heart. But I also should have payed more attention to him to see if anything was wrong cause a man will never try to open up to a women its just not what they do. But me being a women, I should have sensed these things. But men are like a computer if it is locked you can never crack it. They have to leave it open for you for you to get inside. But men feel vulnerable when they leave there emotions out there like that.
I cant rush into me and him being together. I want to be with him because we both love each other. We can't have one person love the other more. We can't be together because were comfortable with each other. We can't be together because you don't want that person to be with other people.
When I am with someone i want everything to be perfect I know every relationship is not perfect. But the person i date: I want to love him and be loved. I want to care for him and be cared for. I want to me spoken to nicely and I will speak to you nicely. I want to be much apart of you as you are apart of me. In a relationship everything is equal. You have to grow with each other, and you have to help each other grow. I can learn from you and you can learn from me.
There is always a perfect person for you out there and that person will probably be up to your standards. They might have everything you want and more. That could be good but also bad. Everyone has issues, But can people be changed!!??

Getting through things

I have been single for 1 week and 3 days and I am just starting to except things and the way they are with my past relationship but to be honest as the days go by and if I dont think about it my days are happy and I feel fine. But if i talk about it or if I think about it. It is hard, I get sad and I'll tear. I just really dont know what happened with my whole life. I am actually getting better I am hanging out and actually enjoying my life and everything that it has to offer. I wish someone out there can give me the answer that is killing me. WHY? no one can answer that question I doubt if he can actually answer that question also. I bet he doesnt even know. To be honest if he comes back to me like 3 or 4 months later and he is like "oh this is why I did it" I dont want to hear it by then the answer will not matter. Whats done is done u can't take it back. I can't wait for the day for this person to be a faded memory. I just want to wake up and say ..... who. But it will take time I know when I find that right person he will just be a very well healed wound.
I guess him treating my mean and not talking to me really helped me get over him fast. I guess thats why he was being so mean to me. So he can get over me fast. I know I am a beautifull person and I have alot to offer. So its definitly good luck to him and I hope he is really happy with his decision. But I am a really nice person and if he ever came to me and spoke to me I would never throw him away. I love everyone and I will greet every person with open arms. I love people and I just wish everyone well. Damn I am venting so much but to be honest it helps out alot. Thanks for reading my post. SHOW SUM LOVE I know some of you have already thanks guys :) :)

Relationships never last

I was with my boyfriend for 3 years, well april 1st would have been our anniversary. But anyways we loved eachother sooo much we had our moments like every single relationship. 3 years it wias still the same thing nothing change he excepted me for me and i also excepted him for him. recently i needed a car because my car was very unreliable i had alot of problems with is so i told him i am going to buy a new car he was really happy for me. he also was in the process of buying a new car. so March 21st comes and i buy the car. he was like ohhh baby i am really happy for you and then the next min he tells me he needs space. i though ok he needs it for one day cause then he was like tommorrow we can go to dinner and talk about things. and then the next day comes and he is like Oh i need my space i cant see u so he just wants to break up with me just like that after 3 years. I DONT KNOW WHY THOUGH.. and we work together so i see him all the time. but we didnt meet at work. So i try to contact him he regets me he doesnt want anything to do with me why though you would think i cheated on him and thats why he is treating me like shit but i didnt. i text him and ask him are you ever going to talk to me he goes maybe but right now i need my space and i need to do me and then i was like so whats that mean your going to see other ppl he was like YEA MAYBE... its like he doesnt even care about me..
HOW CAN SOMEONE WHO IS SUPPOSEED TO LOVE YOU SAY THAT TO YOU..... deep down inside its like i am blank i dont know what to think i would never think this would happen I LOVE HIM STILL but i dont want him back.. i dont think i can ever speak to him again for the way he was treating me.. like i am a pieace of shit and he treated me that way during our realtionship so why should i sweat

Disrespect

Why men see disrepect in one view and women see it in another view..
Well let me just explain what I mean or what I am trying to say. My boyfriend can do or say something and he won't find that it is disrespectfull but to me it will hurt me and to me its like he doesnt respect me.
Like how do you guys feel of your man having another pic of a girls Butt on there phone? I mean c'mon isn't that disrespectfull. I dont mind him looking at porn ok because he has to please himself I know for damn sure he's not going to think of me while he is doing it but I mean thats once in a blue moon. or well I think. and his phone is on him 24/7 dont u think if someone asks to see or use his phone and see that pic there going to be like is that your girls butt, then he'll say nah that some girls ass.... OKAY totally disrespectfull. Extremely.
I mean I can't be nieve or anything like that. I know he will look at other girls that obvious. I guess I am just venting, when I get upset or hurt writing my feelings down really help me. Getting advise from other people also help's me out.

Well he did apoligize to me for having the pic on his phone. He said it was a cincere apology, But I know it will happen again. well see. SORRY if theres alot of errors on this page I wrote it really quickly and I didnt review it.

tripl3Ls

Hi this is a little intro about who I am and what my blog is all about. Well I am 21 years old. I work full time for a big corporation. i could say that i love my job but like every job it has its ups and downs. But I love to go shopping like every female I am trying to also find other ways to make money so if you have any ideas PLEASE tell me.

But basically what tripl3L's stand for is LIFE, LOVE, LIEING.
Why in life everything is so difficult why can't everything in life come easy, I mean making money is difficult, Finding true friends is hard, Living life is just hard!!!!!.
WOW going on to the topic of love. I really should save this for last but men these days are not doing there job. They are lieing to there women, cheating, paying less attention to the one who means the most. Like in my relationship that I have with my man we've beeen together for 3 years now and I keep telling him that he doesnt pay attention to me, I am an " attention whore" he calls me but thats not really true because I got hurt and I was in pain for a week and on prescribed drugs and with the job I had I still had to go to work, even under the conditions that I was on. So I go to work and in pain and drowsey. Everyone at work, men and women, were showing that there care for me making me sit not do anything doing everything for me. When it came down to me driving home under the same curcumstances everyone didnt want me to drive they wanted to give me a ride home but I told them no because I know my man wouldnt let me go in another mans car. So they wanted me to text them to make sure that I got home safe. BUT my "boyfriend" he didnt even text me or call me. To me thats like he didnt even care about me. I called him at 5:20 AM and spoke to him because that when I woke up and I know he doesnt go to bed till late late or early morning, but anyways he tells me that he didnt call me because I didnt text him or anything. SO WHY SHOULD HE? Can you believe that and he is my boyfriend listen theres no time for childish games ohhhh no. But also he plays his online game for hours and hours I try to talk to him and I do bug him but only because I want him to think about me. He knows I love him. But I am trying to change I think it will be best if I let him call me and I let him text me I wont call or im him anymore since I am the one always making the first move. But also i think that men should pay attention to there women more, this is why there is such a high percentage of "lesbians" and I have nothing against them im just saying i think it is because of the men.
But I do wish that he would show his emotions more. He told me he wont because he was hurt before. But really who cares. damn 3 years with me and u cant show me how he feels c'mon know. I tell him if he shows me how he feels then I would'nt be such a pain in the ass. oh excuss my french, LOL. But he tells me that I just have to get used to that. Does anyone have any ideas on how I can get him to open up to me?

Lieing I mean there's really not much to say on that because everyone lies. Its really human nature. I believe that things are just better left unsaid!!!!